5/12/14

Well fam, It was awesome to talk with you. I missed you. and it is crazy to see how your children are growing so fast.  You are so hilarious! Cant wait till we are together again! :) 

It has been a pretty good few hours since i talked with you, we left thank you notes all over the bishops house last night in fun places. It was like hiding Easter eggs. anyways. A fun time, and then we just have been doing things around our apartment. 

It is amazing how quickly things change in missionary work. and everything is going great and amazing and then like the flip of a switch everything changes Now for some sad news: 

This morning "walls came tumbling down" and "the floods came up" to my eyes... a rough start.  (this is only the 4th time.. mom and dad... :)  )

 Sue Dewey, dropped us. I truly felt so sad. I was initially really upset because her reason was that she " doesnt want to antagonize her husband."  Her husband is a paraplegic who is almost deaf, and is struggling and so i think he is trying to hold on to any kind of control he still has in his life, and use it. And that is affecting Sue. He is upset that she is meeting with us.  See, He was out of town until this time. He was living in Arizona for the winter with his brother and came back into town for his other brothers funeral. And so he is home and Sue is finally telling him about her learning with us, and  I dont think he is taking it well. What is it with Satan using spouses! ARGGH!!  So she has made the decision to "cool it" and invite us back when she feels it is best.  I hope she will feel the difference in the spirit in her life. She is continuing to read the Book of Mormon and is already in Mosiah, and she is praying every night.  It is just so hard because just this week we had a great lesson, and Sister Oliveira and I both felt like it had finally been revealed her true concerns and questions about the church. and we know exactly what to discuss with her her when we go to meet her again, and now I feel like we are taking a huge step back.  I just felt so sad for her, so defeated and disappointed. I felt the spirit teach me something, i knew before, but needed the reminder.  That this sadness is what Heavenly Father feels, not only when people like Sue make these decisions, but when each of us make decisions that are contrary to his will, when we know perfectly well what we should do. It makes me think of this quote/ thought dad shared with me recently it says: "Help us, Oh lord, when we want to do the right thing but we don’t know what it is. But help us most of all when we know perfectly well what we ought to do, and we don’t want to do it."  I will be praying for her.  This is hard.

It is really hot and sticky outside already, It feels like when i just came to the mission field, it is an extremely strange phenomenon and kinda sad because time is running out!!

#happy11monthstome! 

#11monthmissionary....what? 

#thisisweird. 

#onemonthtooneyear

I love this work. I love being happy and sharing this with others. I love the peace i have in my life. I love the faith I have and I love the examples I have. Here is to another good week, full of good hard work! This gospel is TRUE! Act on it! :) 

love you all! 

Sister O'Neil